We try, and try, and try.  Our effort is not enough.  We cry, and cry, and cry.  Our tears flow to nowhere.  There is a Loving Source, call it what you may, that can heal every heart, take the world’s pain away. Can I, can you, can we focus on Love, and Light, and Peace?

It’s been a stormy relationship.  There was no natural attraction, but society kept throwing us together.  However, through my angry tantrums, begging, pleading, and occasional emotional meltdowns, Technology remained steadfast.  Our relationship is definitely high maintenance, and for many years I carried deep resentment for the way it  sucked up my time, energy, and money.  Digging in my heels, I was dragged into the computer age whimpering and complaining all the way. I lagged behind, fantasizing that if everyone would just agree, we could go back to a simpler time of phone calls and snail mail.  Eventually, I had no choice but to give in and do my best to go with the inevitable flow forward.  It was a sweet surrender, for when Technology distributed my Diggin’ The Downsize album worldwide, it became obvious this relationship was not as one-sided as I once thought.  In fact my new pal, Technology, even enables me to earn a living teaching music online during this pandemic when all the gigs have “dried up”.  Could it be Technology and myself are going to live happily ever after?  Well perhaps, but despite all this fruitful evidence of our blossoming relationship, my imagination projects into a future where the only option might be to order groceries online.  I really, really want to pick out my own tomatoes, even if they have to be genetically altered.

Creativity needs room.  What would this world be without music, art, literature, and live performance?  The artistic soul needs time to itself to create.  My life is beautifully abundant, and yet somehow amongst earning a living, running errands, paying bills, maintaining a home, self care and spiritual practice, I must find time to write songs and get them into a form that can be shared with others.  Each music project moves inch by inch (a little slower than a snail’s pace).  Over and over I say to myself, “I am on an eternal journey and I DO have plenty of time”, but here and now, creativity is demanding more room.  It seems like the only choice is to let everything that needs to get done gather momentum, while I take some space to write a song. It is easy to feel overwhelmed, and hard not to feel discouraged.  Humm… Deep within, I know the answer to this common artistic lament, for my Infinite Being is well-connected to Divine Wisdom.  It is time to let go of the problem, and trust the solution is on the way.  Everything is always working out for me.  In fact, everything IS working out for me.  It has always been working out for me… What problem?

I’m bringing all my experience and it’s wisdom (or not) to another year.  Like everyone else, my only limits are my own mistaken thoughts and beliefs.  They are just a product of involuntary exposure to society’s flawed suggestions, along with my knee-jerk reactions to life’s challenges.   Yes, I am innocent, and so are you.  We should automatically forgive ourselves, but perhaps not forget our observations. Remembering can be useful as the new year stirs up much self-searching.  Naturally, we want to evolve. I am currently working to discover and replace dysfunctional thoughts and beliefs with ideas that support the potential of who I really am.  I believe we are all spiritual beings capable of living happy, healthy, loving, peaceful, abundant, and productive lives.  I believe we can do and be anything we want, because we are a part of All That Is.  I’ve been catching myself increasing momentum in an unwanted direction by telling painful stories from the past.  Most of these tales seem to center around health. For example, when a friend tells me about a physical issue that I’ve had, my tendency is to let them know I understand by telling them about my experience with it.  Together, we share a conversation that is focused on physical misery, instead  of on our body’s amazing ability to heal itself… Uh oh, have I done it again?  I certainly don’t mean to speak negative words over myself.  It is my intention to stay in the present with an assumption of a positive future.